May 19 2008
A Day to Remember
Finally sent out the paper to the three advisors. Not completely happy with it but still thankful. Thought about adding a small paragrah in the end, just to say thanks. Not yet. I will add it to the final draft.
It has not been easy for the last several month. I can’t believe how difficult it was. Do I have a problem creating/contributing? Sure, learning/absorbing has been tremendously fun.
The last week was hellish. Sichuan Quake really saddened me. I was compulsively following the news. until suddenly I realized what a hypocrisy this is: I always have the option to tune out. But if I were a survivor, I have no such option. I have to face death, deprivation and desperation every day.
Suddenly I am silently thankful for the shitty life I have. This is the last push that put me through. This paper is in memory of those people too.